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30 August 2012 @ 08:41 pm
So, in good and bad news, my thyroid is breaking down to the point where I get what I wanted. I'm going to be going to see an endocrinologist.

Apparently, I've more than likely got either Graves or Hashimoto's disease. Yay.

My thyroid, which I have always jokingly laughed about it being 'defective' is actually just...giving up. It's not working...apparently the last blood test showed really high levels of antibodies...so yeah. Busted thyroid is more than that now...is actually stopping working completely.

We'll see what the specialist says though.
27 August 2012 @ 03:42 pm
I never remember to update this journal. I exist on facebook mostly now. *shrugs*


Two months, one week, into the deployment. Something like 6-8 more months to go. Depends on who you talk to really.

If it wasn't for Leshpar, I don't think I'd be doing as well as I am. Really, it's kind of like living completely alone...I'm having to be indepemdent. I miss my mate, very very much, but I'm doing okay.

I play Rift. I go to the gym to walk on the treadmill. I get rides to the store. I buy things on shopgoodwill.com. I just...live day by day. I am as as I have always been really. Just me.

I don't like making long updates anymore.
20 July 2012 @ 06:58 pm
So, we've reached the 1 month mark of the deployment. I am...coping. Some days are better than others. Most nights are rough. I hug the plush of my mate most nights. I sleep on the sofa. I can't sleep in our bed without him. Maybe...maybe in awhile I'll get over that. I don't know.

Mostly...mostly it's just day by day. I keep busy. I do commissions. A lot of commissions. They keep me busy.

I also have found some hobbies. I've become the keeper of a beautiful ball-jointed-doll, her name is Nemovassi. She's...she's a beautiful spirited fae, and this is my first experience with dolls, and it came as just such a surprise that she's got a spirit/soul.

I'm going to be going to some conventions while my mate is gone as well. I'll be headed to FurAffinity:United in a few weeks. That should be interesting. Going as an artist, bound for artist alley. Hope I get in. If not...oh well...

Mostly...I just try to keep busy. Constantly try to keep busy. My thyroid continues to be broken, such a joy, but I'm still working hard.

LIfe...life is just interesting. I might have a roommate sometime soon, depends how things go. We'll see I suppose. *shrugs* Anyways...that's my update for now. I use Facebook so often now, I forget to use Livejournal.
29 June 2012 @ 12:18 am
So, technical minded friends help me out here. I am in the market to get a laptop or netbook.

My wants:

a cd/dvd drive, preferably one that can write cds/dvds as well.
a webcam that can take decent video.
the ability to play limited games. Namely, games like the ones on facebook.
wireless internet ability
The ability to view large pictures.
the capability to handle chat programs such as skype and AIM
a keyboard that is not recessed into the laptop. I need actual keys, not flat keys. And preferable a decent sized keyboard at that. I hate tiny keyboards.
the ability to play music

Basically, it would be something that would travel with me, which I could use to save images on for use with my art, would be used to take webcam videos and pictures, could burn cds/dvds to send to Matt, and could handle me playing music while talking on skype and drawing at the same time. I don't know what I need, but I know what i want, ya know?

And my budget is around $250, but I'd love to find something cheaper.
05 June 2012 @ 09:37 am
So, the world is a very very different place without sleep apnea. I always thought I was just...one of thsoe people, who are kinda slow and sleepy their whole life, that this was how life should be.

Only to find out, this isn't normal and it isn't how life should be.

I go to sleep by 11 most nights. I wake up around 7.

I don't nap. I wake up, I feel good, I feel awake from the second I wake up. I wake up and I can actually do things. Get things done. I can actually be awake from the first moment my eyes open, til I get sleep at night.

I have a sleep schedule now. I don't try to stay awake. I don't stay up til the wee hours of the morning. I go to bed, I rest, I get a good night's sleep.

Do you know how this feels, to someone who never had this before? It's like...a complete change of everything. It's me, awake, aware, capable of doing so much.

I love it. I really do. I love my cpap machine, I love getting enough sleep, I love being able to be there all day, no napping. I get so much done! So much!

Now if we could jsut get this blasted body to lose some weight, we'd be good. :P
25 May 2012 @ 11:51 am
Someone was asking for an update, so here I am to give on, even though I rarely use LJ anymore.

Matt and I are starting to prepare for his deployment. He'll be gone for 10 months, and I won't see him at all, unless they end up in port overseas for an extended period of time and I can figure out how to go there to see him.

Ammy, my tegu, is now 38 inches long and as bratty and wonderful as ever.

I am still the same weight, minus 2 lbs, lol.

I have been using a cpap machine for nearly a month now to control my sleep apnea, and it's a miracle. Going to sleep around 11...waking up at 7, having a restful night of sleep. Oh so wonderful.

Mostly, I'm just still working and surviving and doing the best I can with what I've got. The deployment is going to be hard on me, but I've gotten used to being alone at this point, from the frequent sea trials that take him away for up a month at a time. I will survive.

Maybe I can get some of my old friends to come visit me. That might be nice. I'm pretty much going to extend an open-invitation to people who have known me for a good long time to come and visit with me for a few days or so. Would be nice.

I still don't drive, but once I'm cleared by the sleep specialist, I'll be working on learning to drive again. :)

Mostly...I work on art, and I eat what I'm supposed to, and I play Star Wars. That's the extent of my quiet little housewife life.
27 April 2012 @ 09:59 pm
I find myself really not wanting to update livejournal anymore. I'm just not here that often anymore.

How is life for me?

Okay, I suppose. Matt goes on his long deployment in about 2 months, he'll be gone for about 10 months. Yeah.

Ammy the lizard is reaching 3 feet long and is now a free-range lizard who is an ornery shit that refuses to learn to shit in the bathtub and not on the carpet. And not drag her ass on the carpet either. Cleaning up lizard shit is not fun.

There is no weight loss, there is no improvement. I'm not depressed.

I make money on commissions now, doing pre-posed pieces. I sketch things, I sell the sketches, personalize them, and pretty much do single commission pieces in less than a day now. Good method.

Life is okay. I'm lonely, bored and anxious, but tonight I have a pizza and I have netflix.

I got my cpap machine yesturday, so now I'll be sleeping with that thing on my face.

And that's it for my life.
07 April 2012 @ 04:04 pm
Recent art of mine that I'm rather proud of. I'm trying to get more commission work lately because I'm trying to update my wardrobe. I'm afraid I have mostly black black and more black in my wardrobe. And brown and dark blue. So long working at walmart makes for not a pretty wardrobe, lol. So I'm working more on art to try and get more business for myself.

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13 March 2012 @ 07:10 pm
So. I have sleep apnea.


In REM sleep, I stopped breathing a total of 91 times in an hour.

How lovely is that one?

Anyways...next step is the cpap machine. *wrinkles her nose*

I just kinda want to process it a bit better right now.